The 40 by 40 Project is written by Angie Teater, a New York-based interior designer & travel writer. The Project begins on Angie's 39th birthday (March 11, 2017) with only 365 days to accomplish everything on the list before turning big Four-Oh! 

Forty goals. One year. Endless possibilities.

#21: Do Something That Scares Me

#21: Do Something That Scares Me

There was a net. There was a harness. There was every indication that I was safe. But, standing on that teeny, tiny little platform, my shaking knees gave zero shits about those safety devices. I was terrified, plain and simple, because I wasn't just expected to swing around on that itty-bitty bar, I was expected to HANG UPSIDE DOWN from it!!

Pause for a second. I'm a girl who can barely manage "camel pose" in yoga class because the sensation of "upside down" is too hard. I can't do a handstand. Or a headstand. Or any sort of "stand" that requires my body to be turned wrong-side-up. And yet, here I was, perched on the edge of little box, 2 stories up in the air, listening to some muscular little lady telling me to just embrace all the fears. And my friend Brielle, below me, taking all the pictures of me embracing all the fears. 

Damn bucketlist. Why did I add "do something that scares me" anyway??? And out of all the things I could have chosen, WHY did I decide on Trapeze School???

Well, because it's sort of badass and awesome. That's what I thought. Until I found myself on the edge of that platform...

I stood up there. Hung my toes off the edge. And had to leeeeeeeean over it, hanging onto the bar. Trust issues, turns out, are a thing. And blisters on my hands became a thing. And visions of breaking my neck, arms, legs, or spinal cord became a thing. Then suddenly, Muscle Lady said jump...so...with slight hesitation, I hopped off the platform and swung in the air! 

I think I cursed. As per usual. And then I realized that hoisting my legs up over that bar was NOT going to happen. Sigh. So I just hung out, terrified to simply BE there...

Soooooo...I tried again. But let me tell you, the amount of courage it took to SIMPLY jump off that platform again was more than enough for me. The upside down-ing? Not happening. No. Nope. Noooooooo!!!! So I did my very best to nail the swinging thing. I tried THREE TIMES and never did get fully upside down. But you know what? I'm still proud. I faced a fear and had a fantastic time doing it! SUCCESS!!

I really hope this is the last thing on the list involving jumping off high things...

#19: Celebrate National Food Holidays / Part 1 of 3

#19: Celebrate National Food Holidays / Part 1 of 3

#3: Ride in a Helicopter

#3: Ride in a Helicopter